It's incredibly hard to believe that one whole month has passed since Silas was born. It's so bittersweet- on the one hand I wish he could stay tiny forever. But on the other hand I can't wait to see what he's like when he's Asher's age. I have to remember that as much as I love his cuddly little self, each new stage gets funner and funner. But as for this first month- talk about a sweet, easy going little guy! In his first two or three weeks he slept almost constantly, day and night. Other than waking up to nurse, he pretty much stayed in dream land. But praise Jesus, this made for such an easy, smooth transition. I guess chaos was what I was expecting when I imagined juggling the demands on a new baby + an energetic, rambunctious, and {somewhat to mostly, depending on the day} potty trained two year old. And don't get me wrong, there have been a few 'moments'... But it really has been an incredibly joyous month.
I'm so thankful that the long wait for another baby is over, that the pregnancy is over, and for all of the simple pleasures- like savoring the smell of a newborn, like being able to drink regular coffee and eat deli meat {without feeling guilty}, like enjoying the feeling that our family is fuller now. I have to admit that there moments leading up to his birth when I doubted how I would like being a mom of two. I was worried that it would be too hard, that I'd never have a moment to myself, that life would be nothing but monotonous child rearing all day, every day. Admittedly very selfish thoughts. But while it is an all day kind of deal, it's been pure blessing and I never dreamed I'd love it this much!
Again, I'm so thankful to Jesus for the grace He supplies to weather every big change in our lives- especially the joyous ones, like welcoming Silas to the family!
Life is full.
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. {James 1:17}
